wmoen will folck to yuo!!

My work day goes by a lot slower when I'm actually doing work.

hi there friend-feel the vitality!

Today I realised that I have been working here for 10 months and I haven't had any holiday that wasn't federally sanctioned. I know that probably doesn't sound like a big deal to anyone, but I think that's actually the longest I've ever worked in any one place without a holiday. I'm not very good at keeping jobs for very long as it is. Before this, the longest I had a job was at the University of Puget Sound Cafeteria. I worked there for two years, but obviously, I got a month off for x-mas, and a week off for spring. Plus, that was part time, so it really wasn't that bad. After that, I temped which would usually afford me a week or two off in between jobs. I also had a stint as a house cleaner but that was so awful that I quit before long. My first permanent job, I got sacked from after 3 months. So long story long, I'm pretty spoiled and not at all used to this “perm” thing. And I think my brain and my body are aversed to it as well because for the last week I have been feeling so sluggish and brain dead and the only reason I can figure is just general weariness. I sent my resume to a couple of freelance editing jobs today. I don't know what those would entail but I felt like I had to do SOMETHING in the way of getting out of here.
Blah blah blah moan moan moan.
So anyway, tonight I'm going to force myself to go to yoga and see if that does anything. It didn't help my energy on Monday but it make me sore which is a good thing?

I had looked into at Woking. The earth all round it had splashed under that

This is one of those weeks when my job is unbearable. It's not even that anything terrible is happening, per se. It's just the mundaneness (mundanaity?) that is getting to me. And I can feel my spirit draining from my pores, down my leg and into the carpet, leaving a vague feeling of emptiness. It makes me want to do whatever is necessary to get Plight made and get out of here. But it's hard to do that. It's hard to get beyond the feeling of soul drainage. I started letters to several of mine and Meep’s influences today and forwarded some of the more complete ones on to Meep to be sweetened. We will do what we did with Simon and Edgar and send them treatments along with these letters. It's all a huge long shot and obviously, there's a good chance we will be absolutely on our own with making this film. But we HAVE to make it anyway, because my life depends on it. I think Meep feels that way too (if not more so, because in the battle of “who's job is more soul-sucking, Meep always wins). So today my emotions embody a strange combination of complacency and motivation. Desperation and stoicism. Fear and acceptance. Whatever it is, I am THIS close to taking a week off to just work on getting people interested in Plight. Unless I can figure out a way to do it all from here…Or maybe I just REALLY need a fucking week off.

policy of truth

I hate people being mad at me. I really do. And I hate looking/feeling like an asshole. Therefore, I shall no longer talk about movies that I dislike/find fault with unless I know we all agree. (So I can still talk shit about Baz Lurhman, right?) This is for the same reason I do not talk about politics with my Republican boss (who is very nice).

I had looked into at Woking. The earth all round it had splashed under that

Another eventful weekend which is nice. Meep and I worked on her short Friday night and much of Saturday. Hopefully we will get it done in time for a festival deadline. I think it's looking really good. I just feel bad because I am not a good sound editor and Meep needs that. I'm trying really hard though.

Saturday Meep and I finally saw the much touted Napoleon Dynamite and were less than impressed. At first we weren't sure why but then we got drunk and discussed it (with Sherwood and Gene who were also not impressed) and realized several things. Even though it was a movie about nerds, we couldn't feel sorry for any of them because they didn't seem to be at all bothered by being nerds. Also, things happened to them that would never REALLY happen in this situation (like the internet girlfriend actually being hot and still wanting to date that guy). People might say it was meant to be absurdest but I really don't think the filmmaker is capable of being that high concept. Also, what was the point of making it “retro” looking, other than for added laughs because “dude, look how funny a side pony tail and a fanny pack is”. This lead us to a discussion about how there are no movies about being alienated in high school that are realistic. They're either really hot actors playing nerds who get their comeuppance, (a la “She's all that”) or it's a cartoon. A caricature. Like Revenge of the Nerds or this movie. Or there's a third genre like Heathers where the protagonist is in the middle between cool and popular and they have to make a choice. No one ever makes a movie about the fat girl in Heathers. Unless it's Tod Solondz and Welcome to the Dollhouse. But that doesn't count because Tod Solondz is a sick fuck.
The only thing that comes close is Freaks and Geeks. That was an amazing TV show that definitely captured certain painful high school moments on the nose. But it was a TV show. And it got canceled. So again we are left with nothing. What up with that? But then again, I might just actually be a huge, joyless, film snob. I hope not.
ANYWHO…after the movie, we played 50 songs on the juke box at Wok and Grill and once again made the nice lady stay late. But we tipped her well. So hopefully she doesn't hate us. Because I HEART Wok and Grill.
Then Meep, Sherwood, Gene and I went back to my place and played music (probably too loudly. Sorry neighbors) and talked passionately about things I don't remember. Next thing we know, it's 5 in the morning. I haven't done anything like that in a long time and I really enjoyed it. Even though I spend most of Sunday recovering. I'm really grateful for long-lasting friendships and developing new ones. I love my friends. I really do. Thanks, guys.

i feel great!-improves sleep

Recap of last night!!!

Meep and I were both pretty nervous and trying to abide by the “whatever happens, happens” philosophy. But we had done so much work so we knew we HAD to get our letter/treatment into the hands of Wright and Pegg. They came out at the beginning of the movie and introduced it and I thought “Oh no! Are they leaving right after this?” but they said they would be back at the end for the Q & A so I relaxed and sat back to enjoy the movie. And enjoy I did! It is so rare that a film I've been hyping up so long in my head meets all of my expectations, let alone EXCEEDS them. This one did. It was hilarious and sad and poignient and gory. All the things a zombie movie SHOULD be (or any movie for that matter). Afterwards, they had a short Q & A wherein people asked the usual questions (including one stupid question from Fan Boy, my new nemesis. More on that later) and then they were finished and I knew is was showtime. They were heading for the exit! I leaped over Dom and accosted Simon with our envelope. He turned it over in his hands and said “Oh, wow. What's this?” “It's for you and Edgar!” I said. “It's from me and that girl over there”. I pointed to Meep making her way over towards us. “Edgar, we got a present”, said Simon. That was when Meep (thankfully) stepped in and explained that we have been writing a zombie comedy for that last two years and that we're big fans of Spaced and wanted them to read our treatment. “So that's sort of a fan letter, slash, treatment”. I redundantly explained. Simon began to open it. “You don't have to read it now” I said. “Oh, would that embarass you?” he asked. “Yeah. Plus it's kind of long” I said. (I think. I can't really remember exactly what was said. I was pretty damned nervous). Meanwhile, other people are handing him DVD's to sign which he's doing but talking to us! Anyway, eventually, I asked for a picture and Dom whipped out the camera and we got in line. Poor Edgar, who we hadn't really been talking to, simply because Simon was the one who reached me first, stepped out of the way of the camera! “We want you in it as well!” I said. And he got back in. Poor Edgar! I bet everywhere they go people ask to speak to Simon and ignore him. The tragedy of life behind the camera! But anyway, we got the picture which can be seen “HERE!”

Then we said thank you and left. It was very exciting! I don't think we made TOTAL asses of ourselves and we did what we had set out to do! They didn't ask us out for drinks, sadly. (But Meep thinks that if WE'D asked, or if we'd accosted them at the end instead of the beginning, it might have happened). But still, even if they never email us or hate our treatment or whatever, we had a mission and the mission is accomplished. I'm quite proud of us!

And now for the tail of Fan Boy: Fan Boy is a sad wanker who works at the Metro theatre. I would bet money that he still lives with his parents. I got to the theatre at 4:30 and was most certainly the first person in line for the movie. While I waited there, I had to listen to Fan Boy talk loudly about all the cool insider information he has about movies. And then more people started to show up for the movie and his true evil nature showed through. Some poor guy who has better things to do that read Aint It Cool News every day came up and said “I'm here for the screening. Is this the line?” “What screening?” Said Fan Boy snidely. “Something of the Dead? I can't remember the name. It's some guy's name and then Of The Dead”. “Well, if you could remember the whole title, perhaps then I could tell you if we are showing it tonight,” said Fan Boy in a tone not unlike that of Comic Book Guy on The Simpsons. That was enough for me. I looked up from my book and said “Yes, this is the line for Shaun of the Dead”. After that, whenever someone came up and asked if that was the line he would try and make them answer a “Trivia” question before they could stand in line. I could tell that somehow this kid had managed to go his whole life without a severe beating and it was about time for him to receive one.
I knew he was truly my nemesis when his dumb friends showed up and started hanging around where he was at his podium at the front of the line. Nearer to show time, I heard what I suspected was coming. His friends asked “so do we have to go get in that line?” “As far as I'm concerned, you guys are in the front of the line” said Fan Boy. “I mean, if you think about it, I've been waiting here all day”. No, you asshole! You've been at WORK all day. As have I. “Actually, if you think about it, I've been waiting for this movie since last Tuesday,” he declared finally. He then repeated these declarations in the SAME wording to drive his “point” home. Fan Boy, you are on my list. One day you will be standing next to Baz Lurhman and you won't know why until it's too late.

Regardless, not even Fan Boy could spoil a lovely evening. Meep and I rewarded our achievement with beer and toasted “to dreams”. I'm beginning to think that Ron Jeremy is our fairy godfather!

Which is Worse?

Bold the one you think is worse! YAY!!

1)Everybody thinking that you are annoying? OR Everybody thinking you are dull?
2)Having your boyfriend tell you he’s cheating on you with your sister? OR Having your best friend tell you that your boyfriends cheating on you with her? Even though they are essentially the same situation
3)Having a guy/girl tell you he loves you and not mean it? OR Having a guy/girl tell you he loves you and then take it back? This actually happened to me
4)Killing your best friend? OR Having your best friend kill you? OR Watching someone kill your best friend?
5)Having an itch and not being able to scratch it for eternity? OR Scratching an itch and scratching it so bad it bleeds and stings for eternity?
6)Farting while making out? OR Burping while making out? Ew
7)A very bad house in a very good location? OR A very good house in a very bad location?
8)Boiling to death OR freezing to death
9)Not doing something and regretting it for the rest of your life how topical OR Doing something and having it screw up the rest of your life
10)Being in a place that is too loud I hate loud bars these days OR Being in a place that is too quiet
11)The guy next to you on a plane snoring OR The baby next to you on a plane crying Babies should be forced to ride in kennels with the luggage.
12)Life in prison without parole OR Death Penalty
13)Being stuck inside on a beautiful day OR Being stuck outside on a rainy day I hate being cold
14)A tap constantly dripping OR A clock loudly ticking An evil butterfly clown clock!
15) Getting on an elevator on which someone had pushed all 26 buttons OR Being in a two hour traffic jam If someone did the elevator thing, I would just get off and take a different elevator.
16)So full you’re about to explode That answer probably pisses off those Sally Struthers kids though OR So hungry you'll eat a shoe
17)Getting shot in the head and dying. OR Getting shot in the face and living disfigured Duh
18)Being the only drunk person in a crowd of sober people they'll ALL remember what you do! OR being the only sober person in a crowd of drunk people
19)Only being able to yell for the rest of you life OR Only being able to whisper for the rest of your life
20)Stepping in dog poop OR Getting crapped on by a bird

Happiness Shock

Today is the day!! Tonight Meep and I are going to an advanced screening of Shaun of the Dead. Meep and I are going to do whatever it takes to get our treatment into the hot little hands of Wright and Pegg and hopefully not make fools of ourselves in the process. We have our treatment and letter all printed out on nice paper. I have filled a flask with vodka for the liquid courage. I just bought a new pair of stockings. I am leaving work at 4:00 in order to get the best possible seat at the screening. Short of rehearsing what we are going to say, we are as ready as we will ever be. And nervous as hell! I'm hoping for a Link sighting today as a sign of good luck.

failure notice

Today is a long day. If only it would just turn 4:00. To pass the time, things that annoy me today:
1) “You should really try to wear more color”.
2) When you have food/drink that starts out really delicious and ends up really disgusting
3) When people wear really small very tight three-quarter sleeve sweaters over long sleeve collared shirts.
4) Skinny mirrors. Most people probably like these, but I actually want to know if my ass looks fat in something.
5) 9 hour work days. When did it become OK to do this? 9 hours a day is a huge chunk of my life.

Ok. That didn't pass very much time at all.

50 stupid questions

1. What year was the best year of your life? Well, I hope it hasn't happened yet but I had a pretty fun year in 97/98. Also, this year has been pretty fun.
2. One animal or insect that Noah should have left off the ark? Motherfucking Mosquitos.
3. Do you make a wish before blowing out your birthday candles? I don't know.
4. Do you generally open your bills on the day that you receive them? Yes. To see when the last possible day I can pay them is.
5. How many pillows are on your bed? Four. Two are mine.
6. Favorite ice cream flavor? Why do they always ask this? Cookies n' Cream
7. What is the most dominate color in your wardrobe? Pink. Hahahahahaha.
8. Have you ever seen a ghost? Maybe…I saw an amorphous green thing about a foot above my head once and it freaked me the hell out.
9. Would you rather go to a carnival or circus? Carnival. But neither, really.
10. Favorite meal: breakfast, lunch, or dinner? breakfast.
11. Your favorite fictional animal? Eh? You mean, like the Jack-a-lope? I'm gonna go with the giant talking black demon cat in “The Master and Margarita”. His name is Behemoth. Ever since I have wanted to name a giant cat Behemoth.
12. Have you ever flown first-class? No.
13. Would you go on a reality show? None that have been created thus far.
14. Are you more optimistic or pessimistic about the future? Optimistic. Sometimes.
15. Pancakes or waffles? They both have their merrits, but you can't beat a big fluffy pancake.
16. If you could own a home anywhere in the world, where would it be? We've seen this one before. I would go to London with plenty of money.
17. Your favorite Soup of the Day? Broccoli and Cheese.
18. What site is a must see for all visitors to your city? The Cinerama.
19. Can you recommend a good restaurant in your city? I can reccommend a TON of good restaurants.
20. You go to the zoo; What is the one animal that you want to see? Ephelants.
21. Potatoes, rice, or pasta; Which is your favorite? Pasta.
22. What is the best movie that you've seen this year? Apparently, it's going to be Napoleon Dynamite.
23. One of your favorite books when you were a child? Really young: “Good Night Moon”. Older: “A Wrinkle in Time”. Older still: “The Vampire Lestat”. And then I read Salinger.
24. What in your life are you most grateful for? My friends.
25. You are home alone and use the bathroom; do you close the door? Of course not.
26. What is your favorite small appliance? The toaster.
27. Salty snacks or sweet treats? Salt lick.
28. Are you usually a little early, a little late, or right on time? A little late to work, a little early to everything else.
29. What is the most daring thing that you have ever done? I don't want to answer this question again.
30. Have you ever met someone famous? Yes!!!! :) Famous to me, anyway. Zach Galifianakis, Steve Burns, Ron Jeremy, The Stella Boys, the guiarist from Rancid, Larry Livermore (who also kissed a friend of mine), and soon: Wright and Pegg.
31. What was one of your favorite games as a child? Dr. Mario.
32. At what age have you looked your best? 19. But I didn't know it.
33. One person that never fails to make you laugh? Faye.
34. What was the first music that you ever bought? The soundtrack to Footloose.
35. If you could change one thing about your family life when you were a child, what would it be? Sane mother.
36. What is the one thing that you cook that always receives compliments? Zookies.
37. From what news source do you receive the bulk of your news? MSN. That's terrible, I know. But it's the first page that comes up at work.
38. In the last calendar year, how many people have you told that you love them? God, I don't know. It's hard to remember who you say that to when you're drunk.
39. Who recieved your first kiss? me.
40. The single most important quality in a mate? Not being a dick.
41. What do you value most in a relationship? Trust, duh.
42. Do you believe that you have a soulmate? Ugh.
43. Do you consider yourself well organized? Only in theory.
44. On average, how many times a day do you look at yourself in the mirror? Every time I go to the bathroom. So a lot.
45. Did you ever make a prank phone call? Yes, when I was a youngster.
46. What one quality do you seek in a friend? Like-mindedness, I guess, since I like to go out to drink and see movies and karaoke with my friends. So they have to like that stuff too. And I don't have any deeply religious friends so I guess that's a requirement as well.
48. When you were twelve years old, what did you want to be when you grew up? Not fat or crazy.
49. Do you believe in a afterlife? Part of being Agnostic is that I don't have to answer questions like this.
50. What would you like to accomplish with the remaining years of your life? Something I can be proud of. Hopefully that includes a zombie movie or two.